I have been singing for as long as I could talk. My favourite thing to do as a young girl was to learn the songs and dance routines from Hi-5 and perform them for anyone and everyone. I still remember the dance routine I made up for the 2003 Australian Idol song "Rise Up" sung by the Top 12 contestants. "We've got to rise up and fly like eagles..." ...you know the one.
I've had an up and down relationship with my voice over the years. In the beginning I sung for joy and fun, and then my perfectionist tendencies began to creep in and I just had to be the best singer I possibly could be...which isn't a terrible aspiration to have by any means! But from a place of 'not enough-ness' - I felt the joy fading, and so much anxiety growing in its place. And I mean I really have come such a long way. Maybe I'll share some embarrassing videos of teenage Jess singing Demi Lovato songs one day (oh dear, some of you even knew me then). But recently I decided to re-frame my vocal journey.
For starters, I used to think that it was purely my own desire that made me sing and want to make music...I mean it definitely started that way. But now it feels like singing chose me. That I was called to do this. That gifts are planted inside of us, not necessarily always for US, but for everyone else too. They're planted inside of us so that we may share them with others and bring more love and beauty to the world through the act of what makes us come most alive.
Secondly, I used to think that through the countless hours of practice and dedication to singing that I had gone from being a 'bad' to a 'better singer'...but now I'm starting to think that maybe I was just like Michelangelo, chipping away at a sculpture that has actually always been complete. “The sculpture is already complete within the marble block, before I start my work. It is already there, I just have to chisel away the superfluous material.”
With every gig, every song, every word sung...I am uncovering more of my wholeness, my divinity, the gifts that have always been there...hidden away in the 'marble block'. ✨
All of this is true for you, your gifts and your inherent wholeness too. You are already a masterpiece. Chip away at the marble - the limiting beliefs, the conditioning that's not serving you - to real the divine, whole truth of who you are and always have been. You are a masterpiece.